Decide

Most assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain. John 12:24

One year ago, April 2, 2020, one of the devotionals I read was titled, “Death Brings Much Fruit” and it really spoke to me AGAIN. It had the year before too, in 2019.

Two years ago, beside the words

“You may discover selfishness lingering in your life when you ought to be sharing what you have in the name of Christ”

I had written, USE YOUR VOICE.

These were the words God had given me when praying about my purpose. I knew He had been prompting me to start putting the things He has been teaching me online.

At this time in 2019 I was still hesitant to do this, I didn’t want to fall into doing from a prideful place or make it about me. I wanted it to be about Jesus and I knew my prideful nature could really screw it up. It would still be another 4 months before I would finally post my first vlog. Obedience doesn’t always come easy, especially for my stubborn self. But I have learned there are blessings that follow obedience.

In 2019 I wrote these bullets down on this day:

-laziness

-emotional eating

-over planning/minimal doing

-procrastination

Soooo speaking of that, I created this blog page 2 years ago. Paid for the domain and it has just been here unused. I was reminded of it this morning when reading that same devotion that spoke to me for 2 years.

Last year in 2020 I wrote on the page of this devotional – DECIDE. Decide was my word/focus for 2020. I said to myself, “Irene you have to decide. Decide if you are going to continue in behaviors that are helping your growth or hindering it, you’re either living for Jesus or yourself and you can’t do both”

As 2020 progressed, I would still struggle in all the areas listed above. The devotion also said, “If these sinful attitudes are allowed to remain alive, they will stifle the fruits of the Spirit.” It was a year of really hashing out my motives and addressing behaviors that hindered the Spirit at work in my life. I’ve learned a lot and am still learning. I genuinely want to help others grow in their faith and walk in true freedom that Christ died to give us.

So this morning, as I was reminded of this blog I created, I decided to make it public. This is in addition to my vlog teachings to share what Christ has done for me and what I have learned walking with Him. It’s been a beautiful journey and I’m looking forward to sharing with you guys!!

Is there anything God is showing you that you need to make a decision on?

(Devotional comes from Experiencing God Day-by-Day by Henry T. Blackaby and Richard Blackaby)